In this blog, many posts are triggered by a sudden surge of emotions I experience, most of which I interpret as God-intended. This following post is one of them, but unique in the sense that i am uncertain WHY i feel emotional. Even as I type these words, I’m perplexed by the feelings I am experiencing. Let me try to explain…
Mrs J’s elderly mother went for a simple operation but ended up hospitalized and in a worst condition after leaving the operation theatre. The surgeon had accidentally poked into the wrong vein. Mrs J’s mother was in pain after the failed operation, but being the gentle lady she is, did not harbour any bitter feelings towards the surgeon.
Upon knowledge of her mother’s failed operation, Mrs. J was furious and wrote a complaint letter to the CEO of the hospital, and cced the Health Ministry of the country. This resulted in extra care and attention given to Mrs. J’s mother by the hospital staff, and the surgeon seeking immediate consultation with Mrs. J’s family.
Mrs. J did not turn up at the scheduled meeting with the surgeon, saying that she’s busy. Mrs. J’s father praised her intelligence.
Upon hearing this story, I, for some odd reason, became furious! Somehow I feel that what Mrs. J did was very wrong. I am trying to rationalize my feelings of anger.
Maybe I generally do not like Mrs. J, thus anything she does I will feel that it’s wrong. Maybe I am a hospital staff myself and thus empathize more with the staff. Maybe I feel that Mrs. J was being too extreme in her actions and was not showing compassion towards the surgeon. Maybe I feel that Mrs. J is a hypocrite cos on the surface it seems like she cares for her mother, while in actual fact she does not; For if she really cared, she would have RESPECTED her mother’s opinion to rest the matter; For if she really cared, she would have spent more time with her mother instead of using it to complain about others; For if she really cared, she would have been there to hear the surgeon’s explanation on what went wrong so that she would be better informed to decide on what subsequent actions will be better for her mother. Maybe I feel that Mrs. J merely saw an opportunity to show-off her wit and did it at the expense of the surgeon’s and the hospital’s reputation. Maybe I felt extra furious cos Mrs. J got what she set out to achieve, recognition of her power and intelligence. THAT IS SO WRONG. Maybe I feel that God is unfair in rewarding Mrs. J for the wrong she did. Maybe what I feel is jealousy.
Do you know why I am furious?
